My mom has had her own ‘bedroom’ in a little place at the center called Infusion, it has become her nest for the last six months. She has endured 7 hours of chemotherapy every 3 weeks tucked beneath the paper-thin sheets for the last six months. When she has been alone in this room, I know she has never felt as safe in the Lords security of knowing the miracle he was performing inside of her soul.
Her room was filled with him.
I know she has had many thoughts in there with him, the countless ending of nervous, thinking of the memories of past surgeries, waiting as the chemo enters her body, wondering how fast her hair is going to grow back and praying over the mental and physical scars that have been left on her.
Those four white walls came alive and in a way that began to sing to her. You see, my mom asked her doctor why she was doing so well on her results and wanted the doctor to explain how could someone tell her to get her affairs in order, but then turn around six months later and hear that the doctors at CTCA have been so impressed with her results after surgery, after chemo and her counts being so low at the end of chemotherapy. Her doctor looked at her and said these words:
BECAUSE GOD SAID SO
He just said that, end of discussion. Period.
God put these two special people together at just the right time. He said:
this is how it’s going to be.
The Lord made me a true believer that he still performs miracles here on Earth.
God took her cancer away.
Which brings me to ringing the bell –
“There comes a point in almost everyone’s life when your world is turned upside down, and you know immediately that life as you knew it is forever changed … You realize that from that moment on, your life will be divided into two parts … Before this and after this.”
To go through something like this with my own mother and now to celebrate Ovarian cancer survivorship with her has truly been such a deep and hard battle. They say 2016 is the Jumblie year of mercy. What I know I want this year, I’m going for it in every way. I hope to cleanse my soul from the physical pain of life and depression. I hope to make new memories with family and friends and the mental pain that is lingering within me. This year I want peace and inter healing with Gods mercy.
My heart is a little stronger this year .. Why may you ask?
Because God said so, that’s just the way it’s going to be