My prayers often consist of asking God to help me through this life of mine with the atmospheric emotions, strong feelings that hover over my day, my thoughts and my actions. Mostly praying that I can get through this life of mine with peace, love and happiness, and then it usually breaks me down and I’ll cry myself to sleep. I am grateful for all the things that God is showing me and has done for me.
In fact, do you ever feel like you just can’t pray enough? Do you feel like you just don’t know what to pray for at times? I know making a good confession is much needed for my Catholic belief of mine, at which I haven’t done yet this year. When my mom was first diagnosed with cancer, I stayed at the church on most occasions just sitting in the prayer garden and because of my Sisters in Christ I was starting to be filled with the Lord. I could feel him with me and I could see him in my mother at the treatment center but then as you know coming back to the real world and life happens with kids, work, friends and marriage. I find myself not praying enough, not feeling worthy again of His love. As if, I’m hollow inside and in desperate need of His touch.
As humans it’s so hard to “give it all to the Lord” and truly let go of your problems. We want to fix everything right then and there. God sends us a new day every morning to embrace, family and friends to strengthen us when we are weak and children who remind simple and pure to remind us to talk to Jesus. Every. Single. Day.
So what I pray for right now is that 2016 is a year of sunlight for whatever takes place this year. I want to embrace the good and bad and I want a closer relationship with my savior. It’s not about what I want to achieve but more less of letting go and letting God. I pray that instead of saying “well, not this year again, maybe next year” that this is the year I’m going to say: I got to know life a little better and come to peace with the women I see changing in the mirror.
To the Louisiana weather: I’ll never understand you
My complete happiness with my best friend who was able to ring the bell this month as she is now cancer free of ovarian cancer.
My mom also got her a new puppy and Cameron named it buddy McGee
But it didn’t make Cameron’s main squeeze too trilled
I’ve also am trying new braids and experimenting with making hair tutorials for spring and summer.
And of course this month has been healthy living and trying to get back in shape.
Happy January from paradiseRoads