Happy Friday! I never posted my Mother’s Day post and I’m finally doing it on this beautiful afternoon. My mom and I have a special mother/daughter trip planned to New Orleans this weekend and I’m so excited to see what she thinks of the Big Easy!
Dear Mom, I’ve wanted to share something with you for some time now. Ive been waiting for the right time…but I don’t know if that will ever exists. So I’ll just speak to you now, as you’ve always done – with the truth.
I know we both have been waiting for our chance to feel the peace of cancer and we can’t wrap our minds around death. God knows our bond and the love that we share has always been nothing short of beautiful and at times almost scary, and HE witnesses our heartache with the pain of phrases like, “why”. This void we feel that no one but us can understand. And I’m sorry that in this struggle of cancer, that I’m not able to go with you. As much as I will want to jump up and reach you there will simple not be a trampoline big enough to boost those days I will try – and God knows I will surely try. I want you to know I would sacrifice all my wishes, my desires and needs to know that I could grow old with you. I want nothing less than the Holy Spirit to breath on our heartbeats. Those heartbeats that have remained so strong- as I would like to think, they are still running strong with the breath of the Holy Spirit. The sounds of your laughter when we couldn’t possible think we could laugh anymore without our stomach exploding will be embedded in my head until the end of time. I just want you to know that your grace, your spirit, and your attitude is what is keeping
your our cancer journey at bay for those who count on your source of light, especially mine! Its what keeps me going. You have a power and a magic all own your own that inspires.